Baby Anthony Loren ;

03.04.2011 ;

2011-03-04T00:36:00.000-08:00

Anthony will be 2 years old on in juss two months ; it's been a real lonq time since i been on here ! & i havent updated anybody with anythin . still havent qot Anthonys headstone up ; we've paid $200.00 on it already & tony wont siqn the papers over cause its in his name & i cant pay on it, unless its in my name ! so its lookinq like Anthony wont have a headstone up fur his second birthday ' which REALLY hurts me alot ): i wanted my baby boy too have it up ! were qunna have to qet a new one & pay that one off. juss wanted too update everybody alittle bit ! thanks everybody & i sure do miss tlkinq to all of all. i will update yuu more , as the days come . & a new mother has found me , & shes became one of my close friends , so all yu other mothers , find here & tlk to her , her name is Brittany Martin ! shes only 17 years old & she lost her little man Konnor, but he lived fur FIVE whole days & he qot to qo too church . will write more about him & her later. (:

it's beeen awhile .

2010-10-18T00:23:00.000-07:00

it has beeen a LONG time since i have posted on here & i'm sorry ! i am no lonqer with Anthony's father , he doesn't even claim him . i am currentley datin sumbody else now & he calls himself Anthony's dad . which means ALOT too me ; he loves my child & does anythin he can fur him . he is helpin me pay fur his headstone ; & he has a wonderful job & i am lookin fur one nowww (: he has alittle boy , who is qoin too mean the world too me whn i qet too meet him . he won't be born till January . i juss wanted tooo update everybody on everythin . & aqain , i am sorry it's beeen awhile .

sorry again .

2010-07-20T17:50:00.001-07:00

hi everybody . i juss wanted too let everybody know we have moved into our new place & things are going greaaat . tonny has a great job wid my uncle . everything seems too be workin out now(: makes me feel so much better . he is going too start helping my dad wid paying off anthonys headstone . which is a really good thing . life seeems too be falling in place for us now . i juss want too get a job now so we will have more income coming it & more things to do wid our money & less we have to worry bout . i cant wait till tony & i can get married & continue our family(: i hope everything is working out for everybody else . (:

06.09.2010 .

2010-06-09T01:55:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry that i haven't been on here in almost a month . Alot is going on in our lifes right now . Were in the process in trying to find a new home . But , we have been doing reallyyy well . my birthday juss passed by . (: 17 , but nuthin special . found out that we owe $281.00 left on the headstonnnee . an really glad<3 it will be paid off really sooon . but agaiinnn , i am really sorry fur not being on here lately ;; how has everybodyyy been doing ? is everyybody been doing ohkaay ? (:

♥05.11.2010♥

2010-05-11T00:36:00.000-07:00

I hope everybody had a wonderful mothers dayyy(: mine went veryy weell ☺!! last years mothers day was really hard because I had Anthony on the first , then we had the viewing on the 6th an then we barried him on the 7th , an then turn around on the 9th , it was Mothers day ; so it was really hard on me ): well ; sorry , this isnt going too be verryy long ; i juss wanted too see how everybodys mothers day went ; an wanted too show ya'll something really cute(:
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⌂ Happy Mothers Day ⌂ (:

2010-05-09T00:26:00.000-07:00

Happy Mother's Day too ALL of you(: I hopee you ALL have a wonderful mothers day ; juss know that your wonderful ÅÑGÉL§ from above are watching you (: I'm sorry I havent posteed pictures from Anthony's partyyy¥ but the site wont let me ; i dont know whyy ; but i wish i did ;; because i wanted ALL of you too see em ; but I have em on my myspace ; an everybody is welcome too add me ; Juss type in " Karie Guinn " an you'll find me ; or Dadsangel2993@yahoo.com you cann type in either of those ; an you'll find mee ; an im the only one there with "Anthony's Mommy" as my name(: but again "Happy's Mothers Day" everybody ; GOD BLESS YOU ALL(:

May 1st , 2010 ;;

2010-05-01T23:13:00.000-07:00

well ; his birthdayy went well ; found out who my real friendssss are ; an there isnt veryyy many people eithheeer ; an you should know who you are ; we did something different , didn't go as planneeeed ; who bought this fence kinnnda thing , an put it around his grave , an put the angel we bought in there , a friend bought him a bear , and some flowerrrrs ; then we got some balloons an everybody wrote something on them , an tieeeed em too the fence (: but we got two more that everybody signeeed an let one go , an we're keeepinnng one(: we had cake , which turned out pretty well ; pictuuuresss will be up soon(:

Today's the day ;

2010-04-30T23:08:00.000-07:00

well , todaayyy's the day we'vee been waiting for ; MAY FIRST 2010 ; this day is going to be really hard ; feels like im waiting too have hhim , all ova again ): never thought it would be this hard ; but its two in the morning , an i cant even go too sleep , an i havee too be up early in the morning , so we can get everythiinng readyy an get all the stuff we need for Anthony's first birthhday ; i cant believe he's alreadyy ONE ; i never thought it would go by this fast ;; i wonder if he would be crawling right now , talking ? walking ? so many questions that i wish could be answered , but never will be ): thats the hard part of it too , not having your questions answered ; i'm not readyy for all of this ; i'm terrified ; an dont know what im going too doo ; im going too break down , in front of everybody , an thats not something i want too do ; i hope everythhing goes perfect ; we're picking the cake up at noon tomorrow ; an im going too take picturesss of everything , so the wonderful friends i have on here can see what a wonderful birthday parttyyy we had for Anthony ; i wishhh i had an Anencephaly mother down here ; so she could tell me how things went for her baby's first birthdayyy partyyy ; i wish Anthony's headstone would be up for his birthday , but unfortantly , its not ): an the cemetery toook his marker ; which wasnt right , i wish something was there so thatt everybody would see juss where he was ; you cann still see , but there should atleast be a marker or something there ;; they are some hateful people ; i'm hopeing by next year , we'll havee his headstone up ; (: im going on an on bout everything , im so stressed out ; an scared ;

ONE MORE DAY , TILL THE BIG DAY;

2010-04-30T12:04:00.000-07:00

it's only one more day away ; an its tooo soon ; i'm not ready , i'm scared ; it's so stressful ; i dont think i will beable too sleep at night ; its like im having him all ova again ; I wanna say thank you too some peoplle ;
An the first person I would have too Thank would be ,
Tony(: ; - baby , i want too say THANK YOU for everything ; an iloveyouwithallmyheart an i wouldnt know what too doo without you ; i'm glad Anthony has such a wonderful daddy like you ; your always there for me , an i wouldn't beable too do this without yooou ; iloveyoubaby(: <3
Amber ; - Thank you girl ; your always there when all these harsh people wanna talk about Anthony, an you always know what too say when i'm upset ; thanks for being there when Anthony was born , an now for his birthday , you amazing(: thanks;
Holly ; - Thank you for everythin you send too us for Anthony ; you know what its like losing your little angel ; your somebody else that I can talk too , you you understand what I am going through ; its like Anencephaly mother too Anencephaly mother ; it would be hard in i didnt have you too talk too ; thanks for everything you have done for Anthony, Tony && I ; your wonderful , an stay wonderful, i'm sure all the other Anencephaly mothers love youu juss as much as i do<3

Two More Days Left(;

2010-04-29T11:16:00.000-07:00

First , I wanna think you Holly ; your so sweet , an thank you for sending us that beautiful card ; we will deffently take it out there too Anthony an read it too him Saturday afternoon ; I'm so scared though , its only 2 days away ;; an i'm not readyy ; i'm juss glad im going too have my friends , an family there with me ; an most of ass TONY ! he's been the beggiest help ever ; people/immature girls where saying that it was good the god took Anthony from me ; that really hate me last night , an had me in tears ; it is was all ova drama ; i got in a fight with a girl , an then after her other friend was liikee it was a good thing God too Anthony from you ; an that was taking it alittlee WAY too far ; buttt I cant believe our little Angel is going too be ONE in two days; ): it went by wayy too fast ;; i'm not ready for our little boy too grow up so fast ; i juss wish we could have him here with us , an him be in our arms during his partyyy ; its going too be the most hardest thing ever ; i'm going too cry the WHOLE time ; ): I'm juss reallyy thankful that i'm going too alwayss have tony by my side , all my wonderful friends on here , myy friends that I know in real life , an my family(: thank yoou everybody ;

Six More Days ):

2010-04-25T11:44:00.000-07:00

Anthony's birthdayy is in sixx more days ; its hard too believe ! It's Tony'ss momma's birthday tooday(: she's up there holding Anthhony for us till we can make it up there(: she never got too hold Tony , so she's holding her grandson (: I've prettyy much got his party planned out (: this is going too be REALLY hard on us ; I'm juss glad I'm going too have Tony && All my friends by myside ; I cant wait till Anthony's party(: an again , if you wanna send something , then email me ; ; ;

Anthony's Birthday !!

2010-04-19T23:10:00.000-07:00

Well ; As everybody knows Anthony's birthday is 11 days away ! I never knew how fast things went ; it feels like I juss had him yesterday ! I didnt know how hard it was too plan a birthday party . Were getting him a cake , inviting ALL our friends . Getting ballons , an writeing something on them , an letting them go (: I'm getting a photo album thats going too say Anthony's First Birthday Party (: cant wait though . I know I'm going too cry , an its going too be REALLY HARD ! If anybody wants too send anything too us , FOR ANTHONY ! Juss ask me for our Address , an I'll welcomely give it too you , and take ya'lls precents too Anthony(: I cant believe it's already been a year ; May First was juss around the corner ; we love our baby boy(: I wonder if he would be saying momma or dada first ? There is so many questions , an they will NEVER be answered ): I wish we would have never lost our baby boy ): I never knew how hard it was too lose somebody till we lost Anthony ): People always talkin bout its hard , an now I know what their talkin bout . Havin Anthony in our arms for 7 hours an 53 minutes , well I can say those 7 hours an 53 minutes where the best hours of my life !! If your wanting too send somethinng too him , email me at Lil_Tonys_Daddy@hotmail.com an I'll send you our address ! Thanks everybody(:

Anthony is 11 Months on ;

2010-04-01T20:42:00.000-07:00

WOW ! Time has went by so fassst ; it seems likee it was juss yesterday that we juss had him in our arms ; would he br crawlin now ? or said mama or dada ; ? i've had some HATEFUL people say stuff bout him ; sayin that I killed him ; an that they can have kids that will live ; an I can't; stuff like that hurts my feelings; ): sorry this is going to be short, but its late ; an I thought i'd update ya'll bout what people say ;

Anthony's Almost A Year Old !!

2010-02-15T23:44:00.001-08:00

Anthony's birthdayy is cooominng up ! He'll be ONE! I cant believe it; Time has went by to fast . Its going to be hard not having him here wit us for his first birthday . I wonder if he would be walking right now if he was here? or if he would be saying DADDA or MOMMA? This questions will NEVER be answered; is he already crawling?

something I have came up with ; I got the first part off the internet; but the rest is from my own wordsss;

Will we know our baby when we meet again?
Will he have grown, not be the infant that died in our arms?
Will we recognize him, beable to find him among so many others?
or will he be a stranger to us, not knowing who we are,
or us knowing him?

Do babies grow in heaven?
He never got his first tooth, or said his first words.
No first shoes, no Santa, no first birthday cake;.
Will our son still be a baby when we meet again?

Do babies grow in heaven?
Who sings his precious lullabies?
Who hold him close and kisses him everyday?
Who tells him constantly that they love him?

Do babies grow in heaven?
When we next meet him, will he know us?
Will he want to know us?
Will he be our son who died 7 hours and 53 m inutes after birth, or a man , fully grown?
Will we have the joy of being a dad&mom to our son for all etermity?

Do babies grow in heaven?
Will we beable to hold him, love him, sing lullabies to him?
Will we beable to hold his tiny hand, or will it be a man's hand?
Will we ever have the joy that only holding our son can bring?
We need to know ! In heaven, is our baby still a baby?

Hi Again Everybody !!

2010-01-18T12:42:00.000-08:00

Sorry everybody ! I haven't been on here much. It's beeen a while. I just wanted everybody to know were doing goood ; missing Anthony , but it will be like that for the rest of our lifes. Sometimes I sit here and think that he's just staying the night with my mom or Tonys mom . But its not like that. When I sit here, I know he's not coming back to be in my arms, and it gets me upset. I'll never get to hold him in my arms untill I pass away and go to heaven and meet with him again ! The other night Tony&I watched the video we had done for the viewing, where is shows all of Anthonys pictures, and we couldn't help but cry ! It's not fair that we wont get to have Anthony in our arms again ! ITS NOT RIGHT ! We want him back; I dont understand why it had to be US ? There is so MANY questions I have, and they WILL NEVER get answered . Life just isnt right with out Anthony ! He'll be a year old in FOUR MONTHS ! Time went by to fast. I wonder how much he weighs, who he looks like now ? This is the HARDEST thing we will EVER GO THROUGH !

Neeew pictuuures(:

2009-10-14T00:17:00.000-07:00

All his hats, binkys, braclet(:

Thanks everybody again(:

2009-10-12T17:36:00.000-07:00

Again. I wanna thank everybody who has beeeeeeen there for me.

Holly, for one- Girl, I don't even know you, and you've beeeen there 24/7. I don't know how to thank you girl! Everytime I post, your on it(: You've sent me things for our little Anthony. When I am down, you always write me something to cheer me up! You told me you AMAZING STORY of your beautiful little daughter.

Tony, Anthony's daddy- Baby, I don't know how to THANK YOU HUNNY! Your there by my side when I neeed you; you was there to hold my hand when we was at the viewing(: youuu are there for mee through, ANYTHING!! You don't let me feeel depressed, you always talk about Anthony and it ALWAYS cheers me up. ily.

Momma, Anthony's Nana; Well you was there for Tony&I when we found out that Anthony had anencephaly. You helped plan out his viewing&Funeral. You was by our siddde&my dadddys side THROUGH ANYTHING! ily.

Daddy, Anthony's Grandpa; You was there through ANYTHING! You wouldn't leave my side, nor Tonys sidddde; You held mine&Tonys hand the DAY ANTHONY WAS BRON! You toolld us everything was going to be okaaay! You said Anthony would stay with us, and show us he LOVES us! ily.

Momma#2, Anthony's Grandma- Were not ALL that closssssse; But you do anything for me, and your son(Tony). You couldnt make it when Anthony was born, but you made sure we was okay, and you called and asked about him, plenty of times. You always get me ANYTHING I want, even if you don't have much money to even do it(: ily.

Morgan, Anthony's Uncle; You was there for Tony&I when we neeeeded you. You was there for Tony&I&Anthony's nana when we found out Anthony had anencephaly. You brung Tony&I fooooood when we was in the hospital! You came up there when Anthony was born, you didn't make it while he was still alive, but it still meant ALOT toooo Tony, Anthony&I. ily.

This is to Anthony Aunt, and Uncles; Sorry ya'll, I didn't want to do it one by one, But I love you ALL and thanks for being there for me&Tony. Means the WORLD To both of us.
Crystal Morehead; I loveee you!
Charlie Sandiford; I loveee you!
Josephh Sandiford; I loveee you!
Brandon Dutton; I loveee you!

Grandpa&Anthony;

2009-10-10T02:32:00.000-07:00

Anthony, Daddy&Mommy LOVE&MISS YOU!

2009-10-10T02:03:00.000-07:00

Anthony's 5 Months 1 Week&2 Days Old.

2009-10-10T01:41:00.000-07:00

Well I juss wanted to thank everybody who has took the time to come and read Mine, Tony's&Anthony's blog. I might not know any of ya'll but ya'll have beeen suporrtive to not only me, but Tony.

We miss Anthony more then anything in this world. I would do anything to bring him back. ): when he was born and a couple hours after, and he was having hard times breatheing and wasn't going to make it much longer, Tony&I and my momma&Daddy were all sitting around him and I would tell him "it's okay son, you can go, we won't be mad at you" everytime I said that, he'd breathe, and it would make Tony&I smile. To this day, I think that is what he was wanting us to do, is smile before he went to join Jesus.

Debbie- I would like to thank you for coming and reading my blog. I don't know you, but from what Tony has told me, you seem really nice(: thanks again for coming and reading it. If there is ANYTHING you wanna ask, please don't be scareeeed; && that goes along for everybody else.

Our Angel Is 5 months and 4 days ollld;

2009-10-04T23:54:00.000-07:00

Well sorry I haven't been posting latley; I just been having alot going on lately; && alot of things have beeen getting to me, and have beeen starting to feeel down about everything; I've beeen misssing Anthony so much; Somebody said Anthony didn't have NO brain and that REALLY got too me and had me upset, REALLY upset; && then they said I did drugs while I was pregnant and caused him to have Anencephaly. & to me, there is NO reason for that; For along time I blamed myself and when I seeen that, it really got to me and made me really upset, and if I didn't have Tony, I don't think I could have went through that; The people that run there mouth about it don't know how it feels. & people that haven't had a baby with anencephaly don't know how it feeels to watch your baby suffer too beathe and then have too give your newborn and viewing and funeral. NO its not the easiest thing to do. Other moms know but not people who haven't experienced it. If Tony wasn't around to help me through all of this, honestly I don't think I would have been able to do this alonne. I thank Tony everyday for being a REAL MAN and sticking by my side at such a young age, and with any other guy, they would leave their girlfriendd. Well I thought I would post ya'll. Again if you need to talk to me, email me at Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com or if anybody neeeds to talk to Tony, email him at Lil_Tonys_Daddy@hotmail.com

Soooo cute;

2009-09-14T23:08:00.001-07:00

Our angel is 4 months and 8 days old.

2009-09-08T23:53:00.000-07:00

if anybody wants me too edit a picture like this, juss write me and send me the pictuuure; I am not like Amber though, she iis gettin me the thing too do it, but untill then, I can do some things.

Anthony is getting sooo old. I wish i could see how big he is gettin. (:

I sat down and wrote my story is a couple different ways, this is one, and another one is on Anencephaie-info.org. But let me know what ya'll think about this one? (:

Well as you all know that Tony&I are proud parents to an anencephaly baby. I was 15 years old and Tony was 16 when I found out I was pregnant, I thought it was a crazy thing and never thought I would get pregnant. As my pregnancy went on, I was having some complications; I was in and out the hospital. One day, when I was 5 months pregnant with Anthony, my pains were so bad, I decided I would go to the hospital again. As I was laying in the hospital bed, they came and let me listen to Anthony’s heartbeat, the first time I got to hear it, they said they wanted to do a sonogram, but wouldn't let anybody in there with me. That sounded kind of weird but I wanted to see my baby, so it was okay. They were taking measurements and a lady said she had to go check them one more time, and I didn't think anything about it. I went back to the room, and was sitting there and started to get worried, the nurse came in and told me she had very bad news for me and she was sorry to have to tell me this, but my Anthony had be diagnosed with anencephaly. I had NO IDEA what on earth those words meant, so I continued to listen and all I could get out of her words was that our Anthony was going to pass away during birth, after birth or while in my belly. I was scared to death. Tony, the baby’s father, and I looked at each other and didn't know what to say to each other. All we could do is cry. Tony had wanted a baby for so long and when we found out that I was pregnant with our little Miracle he was so happy, it was unexplainable. When he heard those words come from those nurses he couldn't even get any words out.They told me I need too get OB/GYN and fiqure out how our pregnancy would go.; They were trying to get me to go ahead and end our pregnancy; Tony&I told each other that we couldn't do that to our little miracle of life; They continued to tell me that our Anthony wouldn't make it through the pregnancy;As I went on with the pregnancy we did some research and found out more about anencephaly. We found out that the brain isn't FULLY developed, and there was noo skin there coverin it up, and we were soo scared to see our angel like that..On May 1, 2009, our lifes changed. We wasn't scareeed to see our Anthony like that. He was PERFECT! The first time I seen him, I couldn't do anything but thank god for such a miracle. Watchin Anthony take his last breathe in life was the hardest thing of our lifes. We keep telling Anthony it was okay to go because we knew he would be in a better was and wouldn't be suffering, and would feel NO pain.At Anthony's services and funeral, it was really hard knowing our little angel was gone to heaven, and wouldn't be coming home with us. At night we lay and bed, and finally fall asleep, and wake up in the middle of the night thinking we hear Anthony cry and think it is time to feed him. And thats the hardest thing of our liife. We look forward to giviin Anthony a brother or sister' We will beable to tell Anthonys brother or sister soooo much about Anthony, and cann juss go on and on! Anthony is the best thing that has ever happened to us, and we wouldn't go back and change ANY of it.

Gavesiiite

2009-09-06T00:33:00.000-07:00

Babyy

Land.

Rest in peace, our angel.

His flowerrs;

Anthony Loren Guinn Jr.

His headstone will be up shortly, and I will put picturees on(:
Thanks again everybodddy;

September 6, 2009!

2009-09-05T22:58:00.000-07:00

Well I am sorry I haven't posted much latelyy. I thought I would let ya'll see some picturres I have of Anthony, and his gravesitee. I hoppe you like(:

I juss have been REALLY busy lately, and don't have much time to get on the computer;

As Of August 20, 2009

2009-08-20T03:00:00.000-07:00

We have been missing Anthony alot here lately. I have been arguing with this kid about Anthony. He said some disturbing things, and I am NOT going to let it upset me, because I know everything he said was nothing but a lieee. Alot of things have been going on in all of our lives, and it makes me want Anthony back in my arms, so everything would juss go AWAY! We are wanting another baby here soon. I have though alot about school, and I can drop out and get my GED but I have been thinking about doing what I did for my 9th gradee year. Which is the home cound program! I have this weekend to decide, but I wanna beable to get my high school deploma, and I am going to be taking some college classes online to become a photographer. Which is SOMETHING I love doing, and I wanna beable to take pictures of babies that may not make it long after birth, like people did with me! && I wanna do it for free. I'm dunno get through school and this college, and Tony will be getting a job here soon, and I am going to get him to get me a GOOD camera, the prefesional cameras. Thought I would update you all, and sorry I haven't been on here much to tell ya'll everything.

(:

2009-07-23T00:58:00.000-07:00

Hey everybody; I just wanted to update everybody on how my life is going, along with Anthonys&Tony's!! Anthony is missed deaply. ): Wish I could bring him backkk. So does Tony. ); things are getting harder and harder everyday. Wishing we could wake up in the middle of the night to Anthony crying because he is hungry. I really don't know what else to sayyyy. I juss wanted to let you all know how we are doing, and feeling. I am about to go to bed, so it is a short postttt. Message me on yahoo if you wanna talk, or myspace.. If you look me up on myspace it's under Karie Guinn!!!

Two Months&Fourteen Days Old'

2009-07-14T22:39:00.000-07:00

Hey everyone, I want to post and let you all know everything that is going on. I am going through a really rough time. My mother moved outta our house, leaving me with everything. I have to worry about my brother, as if he is my son. My dad is having to work 24/7. Tony is tryin to get a job. We want another baby here soon. We both wanna get up on our feet first. The kids I was watching, I am NO longer watching anymore. I feel really bad because I am not on here posting all the time. Anthony has changed our lifes so much. He touched mine and his daddy's heart so much.. I never thought somebody so small could touch so many peoples heart's. I got some flowers out there at Anthony's gravesite. I am not able to get out there much, but I am tryin. Tony&I&My father are trying to get his headstone up FAST(: We have to get a paper from the cemetery and take it to my dad's job and they will be paying for it(: they are REALLY nice people. I am having problems with my C-Section, it has been REALLY sore lately. Honestly it is really worth all the pain, body wise. It was ALL for our little Anthony. He means the world to me.. I am glad he is doing PERFECT in heaven with all the other ANGELS(: I know other mommy's know how I feel and where I am coming from.

Again thank you for reading Tony&Anthony&My blog!
Anthony's Mommy&Daddy! Seven Hours And Fivty Three Minutes.
Daddy's Lil'Man(:

Sorry Everyone;

2009-07-05T17:07:00.000-07:00

SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN ON POSTING EVERYBODY UP; BEEN ALOT TO BE DOING; WE ARE GETTING OUR SON'S HEADSTONE UP SOON; ORDERED IT NOT TO LONG AGO. THEY WERE SUPOSSED TO. I HOPE THEY DID; I HAVE BEEN UNDER ALOT OF STREE LATELY. I AM WATCHING KIDS NOW FOR $150.00 A WEEK; TONY IS ABOUT TO HAVE A JOB. GETTING ON OUR FEET; ANTHONY IS NOW 2 MONTHS AND 4 DAYS OLD; HE IS GETTING SO OLD SO FAST; I BET HE IS GETTING BIG UP THERE WITH JESUS. IF ONLY I COULD SEE HOW MUCH BIGGER HE HAS GOTTEN. (: HE'S SO PERFECT; I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET WITH HIM AGAIN. BEFORE ANTHONY WAS BORN, I WAS SCARED TO DIE, AND NOW I AM NOT SCARED TO JOIN ANTHONY&JESUS IN HEAVEN. (: I WOULDN'T MIND IT AT ALL. SORRY I AM NOT ON HERE MUCH. OUR LABTOP BROKE AND THIS COMPUTER RUNS SLOW, BUT I GET ON MY EMAIL SOMETIMES IF YOU JUSS WANNA WRITE ME. BUT ALSO YOU CAN WRITE TONY. HE IS A BIG HELP; THANK YOU ALL FOR COMING TO MY PAGE AND CHECKING THE UPDATES; (:

THANK YOU;
KARIE&TONY;
ANTHONYS MOMMY&DADDY;; 7 HOURS&53 MINUTES;
5 POUNDS 6.2OZ
171/2 IN LONG;
BORN INTO MOMMY&DADDY'S ARMS AT 8:21AM
JOINED JESUS AT 4:14PM

aNtHoNy, MoMmY&DaDdY LoVe YoU&MiSs YoU.

2009-06-14T18:59:00.000-07:00

Anthony is deaply missed by alot.. He is getting so old so fast, I bet you he is getting so big, I wish I could watch him grow.. I love him so much.. We got his flowers set up in our new room, his crib is still up, and is NEVER coming down.. (: Anthony's headstone will be up soon, trying to get one we like, and think of something good for it to sayyyy. (: This is going to be short because I am feeling sick, I just wanted to update everybodyyy, wish I could update you all on him.. Atleast I know my little angel is watching everything I am doing, an making sure I do nothing he doesn't want me to; (: Anybody that wants to talk, please feel free to email me Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com and feel free to email Tony with imformation from the fathers poing of viewww. He is a suporitive person.. Lil_Tonys_Daddy@hotmail.com

aNtHoNy Is MiSsEd DeApLy!

2009-06-03T20:53:00.000-07:00

ANTHONY IS MISSED SO MUCH. HE IS NOW A MONTH AND FOUR DAYS OLD. BEFORE WE KNOW IT HE WILL BE TURNING A YEAR OLD. :( THINGS REALLY HAVEN'T BEEN TO WELL RIGHT NOW, WE THINK I AM PREGNANT AGAIN. NOT POSITIVE ABOUT IT. I ASKED ANTHONY IS HE WOULD BE MAD AT ME FOR HAVING ANOTHER BABY, AND NOT TO REPLACE HIM, TO REMIND ME OF HIM, AND HIS RESPONCE WAS NO! ANTHONYS DADDY TALKS ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME, AND NOT ONLY HIM HIS UNCLE BRANDON.. &&HE IS ONLY FOUR YEARS OLD. HE KNOWS WHERE ANTHONY IS, AND KNOWS WHERE HEAVEN IS. TONY REALLY LOVES ANTHONY, ITS LIKE THERE IS NOTHING TO TAKE HIS MIND OFF OF ANTHONY, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! ANTHONY HAS EFFECTED OUR LIFES ALOT, AND SOME OTHER PEOPLES TO! WE WILL NEVER FORGET OUR LITTLE ANGEL, AND HE WILL NEVER GET REPLACED, I HAVE A LOVE FOR THAT BOY LIKE NO OTHER, NO WORDS CAN EXPLAIN MY LOVE FOR ANTHONY. HE CAME INO THIS WORLD SO AMAZINGLY, HE DIDN'T EVEN CRY THE WHOLE TIME HE WAS WITH US, THE ONLY TIME HE DID WAS WHEN HE WAS BORN.. MOMMY LOVES YOU ANTHONY LOREN GUINN JR.

Anthony Is A Month Old

2009-05-28T22:08:00.000-07:00

It's so hard to believe my little angel is already a month old. Time flys by so fast, and not only he is a month old but he is a month old on my birthday.. I miss my little bubba so much, its so hard. Anthonys daddy does anything and everything he can for me&&always talks about his little man.. :) Tony is a proud daddy to a perfect little baby. He is so glad that he is getting the chance to talk to other dads because during my pregantcy nobody was really there to talk to him but me. Anthony holds the key to my heart, and not only does he hold the key to my heart, he holds the key to his daddys heart. Anthony has made a big change in my life&in his fathers hearttt. I wouldn't trade in any moment I had with Anthony. I am glad he is not have any problems and he isn't suffering or anything. I am so proud of him. I know we will meet again so I know everything is okayyy. Again, if anybody need somebody to talk to I am here. I am not the perfect person, but believe me, I am here. I know what alot of you are going through, well some what, and his your husband or boyfriend needs somebody to talk to Tony is always here. Just email Lil_Tonys_Daddy@hotmail.com. And you all should have my emaill.

Anthony, Your An Angel.

2009-05-24T22:12:00.000-07:00

Son, I love you with all my heart. I miss you more then anything in this world. Baby, I wouldn't trade you in for anything or anybody. You have my heart, and I know I won't get it back from my precious little angel. Son, having you made me feel like I was the best person in this world. You will always be mommys little man, && Daddys little monster. Daddy&I couldn't wait for you to be born, but wasn't ready to loss you. Somtimes I think you are still inside me, I rememeber the first time you kicked REALLY hard, daddy&I were att Morgans house, and daddy&I were so happy. Mommy&Daddy think of you all the time. I know you are watching over us now, and that is why we know you are okay, and with some wonderrfull people. The day you was born I was scared, I wasn't ready to have you. Daddy&I couldn't wait till you was born so we could see your beautiful face, but then again we wasn't ready for you to be born because we didn't wanna loss you. If it wasnt for you Daddy&I wouldn't even be together. You are the strongest baby Daddy&I have ever meet. Mommy&Daddy want you back so bad, we can't wait to come to heaven and see our little angel. You'll be a month old on mommys birthday, its so hard to believe you are that old, and it has been that long. I have my days where all I wanna do is think about my lil man. &&days where I know you are okay, and it's better that you are not in the terrible world.. I don't know how life would be if you wouldn't have been born into this world. I thank god for giving us 7 hours and 53 minutes with you, you held on for so long, and stayed strong for so long, you are a miracle baby. I was scared to death that you wasnt going to be with us long, but you proved to everybody you was strong. You wanted us to have ALOT of memories with you. You stayed strong so that everybody could come and meet you, and the ones who didn't, they missed out. Since you stayed SO STRONG for mommy&Daddy, we are now staying strong for you son. Mommy&Daddy love you so much bubba.

Picture Perfect!! :)

2009-05-24T21:20:00.000-07:00

Anthony&Grandpa.

Cutiest Thing Ever!

Love This!

Mommy&Anthony.

Our Family.

Our Perfect Family.

So Happy!

Anthony.

He is my life, has my heart, my everything. I wouldn't trade him for anything or anybody in this world. I don't know what I would have done with my life if I wouldn't have had you. You changed my whole life. I love you like no other son. There is NO WAY to explain how I much and how I love you. Your mommys lil man. I love you bubba.

2009-05-24T21:19:00.000-07:00

Picture Perfect!! :)

2009-05-24T12:38:00.000-07:00

Anthony..

Nana&Anthony..

Mommy&Nana&Anthony..

Daddy&Anthony

Anthony.

Anthonys Feet&Mommy&Daddys Class Rings.

Daddy&Anthony.

Mommy&Anthony.

Missing Him So Much

2009-05-24T12:01:00.000-07:00

May 29th, Anthony will be a month old, thats also my birthday. I miss my lil'man. :( There is something crazy, there is this lady that had a baby I think fridayy and her lil boy has something like Anthony did but it's something alittle different, and she had the baby in the same hospital I did, and they are NOT letting her have her baby with her, they took the baby and put him in ICU, but he also has heart problems. Really sad. But they are NOT feeding the baby, only sugar water. That pathetic. Also, she was in the SAME waiting room as I was, SAME recovery room, and now she is in the SAME room I was in. Isn't that crazyy. I just pray that your little boy will make it, and hope he stays strong like Anthony did. But Tony&I are going to be helping other families through this, person to person.. Were very happy to do this, && I know Anthony would want us to do that. :) We talk to Anthony all the time like he is here, and he is here in our hearts... Again if anybody needs to talk, or wants some imformation just email me at Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com.. God bless you all! :)

He's Perfect

2009-05-17T11:09:00.000-07:00

We miss him more then anything. Think so much about him, he'll never get off our minds.. He was so perfect. It's been 2 weeks and 2 days since he has passed away. It's so hard to believe he is still so young. It feels like he is a month old, or even two months old. Tony&I have talked about things and we decided if we have another baby it will have Anthonys name in that babys name. If we have a boy it will his first name, and if we have a girl it will have Anthonys middle name. :) I think Anthony would really like that. I think it is better that Anthony is in heaven, he is in a better place. He will always be in our hearts, we'll never forget our little angel. We talk to him every night. It's kinda like he is here with us, but he isn't. We'll always love Anthony. Also we get to design Anthony headstone. We are doing that this weekend. Thanks for reading about our son, Anthony.! I'm here if anybody wants to talk.

Picture Perfect!! :)

2009-05-13T23:48:00.000-07:00

Daddy&&Anthony!

Mommy&&Anthony!

Isn't It Cute!

Mommy&Daddy&Anthony!

We Miss Our Lil'Man

2009-05-10T19:35:00.000-07:00

Sorry I haven't been to post about Anthony. He was with us for seven wonderful hours. He gave us a lifetime in 7 hours. We thought it would be REALLY hard, but we are staying STRONG for Anthony. He defently looks like his daddy, has his daddys top lip, his daddys nose, his eyes, Tony's face pretty much. He had my bottom lip and my checks. :) But he had both of our hair. :) So he features the both of us good. I know my lil man is looking down on his mommy, daddy, nana, and his grandpa, and his grandma, we know we are safe now that we have Anthony and god looking down on us all. He is deeply loved and missed, and will always be. We know he is in a better place, and a better place then us right now, he isn't suffering, and defently isnt going through any problems down here. I bet jesus is holding his in his arms right now telling him everything will be okay, soon his mommy and daddy will join him in heaven with him and god. If any mom reads this and is pregant with a baby with Anencephaly, I would love to help you through this. I would be willing to talk to anybody. I have a private email, just email me. Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com or Dadsangel2993@aol.com. I am here for anybody. Just know that everything will be okay, just take things slow, and have faith him your baby and not only your baby, but god.

Our Lil Man, Survived 7 Hours. He's A Fighter!

2009-05-10T09:29:00.000-07:00

Oue Lil Man.

Daddy And His Lil Man.

His Little Ring.

Mommy&Daddy&Lil'Tony.

His Braclet.

5 Days To Go!

2009-04-26T01:40:00.000-07:00

It's to close away. I don't think I can do it. I get more upset everyday. Tony and I are not ready yet. We have got the funeral arangments all down and where we want him and everything. We wanted to put him at the foot of Tony's mommy, because Tony never got to meet his momma, and she never got to hold him, but then we decided we want to put him where my family is, but in baby land, and then whenever we get a plot for us, move him to where we are going to be. I hope it's going to be a good idea. Tony and I went and had pictures done friday and they turned out really cute. I will put them on as soon as we go and get them. Friday is to close. I am to scared. It's hard to believe I am about to have him, and I was always the one to say I am not having a baby yet. But I guess god wanted me to have a baby, and hopefully be a wonderful mom to Anthony. Thank you all for taking the time to read. God bless!

1 Week To Go.!

2009-04-24T04:24:00.000-07:00

It's almost seems impossiable. He will be here so soon. I can't believe it. My last doctors appointment was Wednesday! And all he told me is that he would see me on May 1st. I was told that Anthony should stop moving so much since it is so close to my due date, but he is still an active mover, asn't slowed down. He always kicks when I am laying with somebody, it's like he knows and defently doesn't like it. :) He always kicks his daddy in the back. It really means alot to Tony when he feels him kick and all that. Anthony ALWAYS kicks for his daddy, and always moves when he hears his voice. We can be talking and Anthony will kick, it's like he is saying, DADDY TALK TO ME! :) I don't know what I am going to do when he is here. I am going to have so much to say, I don't even know what to start with, but I do wanna make sure I do say "I Love You Son". I am not going to let him get outta my site. I got all my stuff for the hospital packed, and I got all Anthony's things packed, now all we gotta go get is somethings for Tony.. He'll be here soon, and I can tell ya'll about my precious baby boy, and how handsome he is. Thank you all.

1 Week And 4 Days To Go.

2009-04-20T20:01:00.000-07:00

Sorry, I haven't been posting lately. I have been feeling really misserable. It's flying by so fast. Tony and I can't believe it. Our little man will be here so soon. I can't wait to see his beautiful face. He slowed down with his moving but I hate when he stays in one spot now, I am so used to him moving around and only staying in one spot for about 10 to 20 minutes. But it's okay, as long as he is okay and comfortable in there. :) I think I am ready for the c-section, I have been watching this channel on TV and I think I can take it but the only thing I am not looking forward to is that shot in my back. My sister told me that it is just alittle pinch, and all you feel is them moving alittle bit, but not really. So I think I can do it, but that shot has really got me scared, but Tony has been real supportive, he always tells me he will be right there with me and that everything will be okay. So I thank him for that. He can't wait to be a daddy, and see his little man. I have a doctors appointment on wednesday-4/22/09 so we can make sure everything is okay with him. I'm sure everything is, he is strong baby. Also if anybody would like to ask me any questions, please be welcome to write me at Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com

Just A Short Post!

2009-04-18T05:54:00.000-07:00

It's so close. I can't believe it. I don't have much more time to go. I have been feeling really sick and miserable today.. Tony has comforted me alot. I think god I have him. We are having a yard sale to raise money for the funeral, but hopefully we won't have to have one. Tony and I had a good night last night, he talked to Anthony an offal lot. He would always kick when his daddy would talk to him. He loves his daddy, you can already tell. :) It's only One week and Six days. WOW!

Prego Pictures

2009-04-18T05:39:00.000-07:00

Mommy&&Daddy!

One Of His First Ultrasounds, His Little Feet.

We Had Fun.

Momma And I

2 Weeks To Go.

2009-04-17T16:16:00.000-07:00

Only two more weeks to go. Its not that much farther away! I am deffently scared. I don't know if I am ready for him to come out. It is going to be so hard if Anthony doesn't make it, and when I come home I am going to see my precious little nephews Cayden and Aiden. I am going to see my sister be a perfect momma to her baby boys, and mine might not be with me for me to be that good of a momma to Anthony. I might not get to see his first smile, hear his first laugh, or when he starts to try to talk. I might not get to see all that happen with Anthony but I watch my nephew do all of that. I watch my little nephew run around, it is going to make me wanna break down, I still pray that Anthony will be as strong as he is now, and get to make it through all of this. He is an amazin baby! So are all of those other angels that have/had anencephaly. That is much as I can update for today, but I will update more tomorrow.

2 Weeks And 1 Day To Go.

2009-04-16T14:22:00.000-07:00

Wow, only two weeks and one day. I don't have much more time to go. It is an amazing feeling knowing I am going to be able to hold my precious baby Boy. I just pray that he will be just as strong when he comes out, and keeps the good work up and show everybody that he can make it through all of this.. Even if he doesn't, Tony and I will love him the same way! He holds our hearts. He has changed our life's in so many ways, yeah it might seem crazy that a baby so little can change somebody's life, but our son has changed almost everything about us. I am not going to know how it feels when I have the c-section, I am scared that I am not going to be able to hold him before god takes him from us because I am going to be in surgery still, I just hope he makes it and god will show us all that he can make miracles. God is an amazing person, and he has helped me through so many things, and I pray to him that he will help my baby boy. I have rethought a lot of things. Many people have showed me that some care about my angel, and some don't. If baby Anthony doesn't get to stay with us, he will NEVER be forgotten, he will be loved the same as if he was here, and he will ALWAYS be in my heart. I hope I have got all the things I will need for him when he is bornnn. I have finally felt him have hiccups, it feels so weird, but it is also an amazing feeling.

2 Weeks And 2 Days To Go.

2009-04-15T19:26:00.001-07:00

Things are going amazing. He has been an active mover. I can't wait till he is here with us. Only got two more weeks and two days. I've been having some pains in my stomach but not to sure what they really are. People seem to really wanna be there when Lil'Tony is born. We made a video of him moving but I guess he knew we was making one because he stopped moving around and everything. He always kicks for his daddy. He moved around alittle bit but you can't tell. We are going to try to make another one when he will kick and everything, but some people say that since it is so close to time, he isn't going to move much. He don't move like he used to, he would make my entire stomach move, but it moves alittle. Well I thought I would update everybody, and can't wait till he is here, so I can tell all of ya'll around our amazing handsome angel!

2 Weeks And 3 Days To Go.

2009-04-14T20:26:00.001-07:00

Well things are going good so far, had a doctors appointment today, and we scheduled the c-section for May 1, 2009. I have to be there around 5:45-6:00 and they will start the c-section around 7:30. I'm really scared, I don't know how it is going to feel. The good news is, Tony's going to be in there with me, and they are going to finish the c-section and Tony will have the baby during that time, and it should take 45 minutes to an hour before everybody else can see Anthony, Tony and I. At least we get to keep baby Anthony. I only have two more doctors appointment's until our angel is here. Everybody is ready to see him. He's been a big time mover even though he is almost due. He's always been a good kicker and a really strong baby. All I am going to ask is that ya'll pray for the best when he comes. He seems to not like when we listen to his heart beat. :) I can't wait till our son is here. Is daddy is ready to see him. :)

2 Weeks And 4 Days To Go.

2009-04-13T00:57:00.000-07:00

I know I haven't been on here posting everything like I should be. Just a really busy person, getting everything ready for when Anthony comes. He will be here in 2 weeks and 4 days. He is an amazing kicker. He loves to kick when his daddy talks to him. I can tell he is going to be with his daddy more. :) I am not ready for him to be here yet. It's a scary thing to be looking forward to. He is my first and don't know how it is going to feel, or what it is going to be like. He seems to always be a happy baby, even though he is still inside of me. Everybody is ready for him to be here, ready to hold our little angel. I'm scared I am not going to be the mommy that Anthony is looking forward to. I try to talk to him as much as I can, and rub my belly but I don't know if I am doing the right things for him. Sometimes I always ask myself why it has to be our son.? I don't see how this could happen to any baby? How could something like this happen to anybody? Sometimes I don't understand life. No matter where Baby Anthony is, I will always love him the same, never forget him. I want to spend the most time with him as I can. He holds the key to my heart. He showed me and his daddy what it really means to love somebody.

Anthonys 3D Ultrasound

2009-04-13T00:49:00.000-07:00

He Means The World To Me!

My Everything!

My Precious Angel!

Showing He Is A BOY!

Anthony Loren Guinn Jr.

2009-04-13T00:24:00.000-07:00

My Name is Karie Sandiford. When I was five months pregant I found out that my baby boy Anthony had be dignosed with anencephaly(no brain). I didn't know what to do or think. I had no clue what it meant. I was scared and didn't know what to say or anything. I didn't think it anybody could have no brain, and not beable to live after birth. I am so young as it is and didn't understand anything that the doctors were telling me. I prayed everyday that things would change and they would tell me that my baby boy was okay and it was a mistake, and that day has never came.