Anthony's Almost A Year Old !!

Anthony's birthdayy is cooominng up ! He'll be ONE! I cant believe it; Time has went by to fast . Its going to be hard not having him here wit us for his first birthday . I wonder if he would be walking right now if he was here? or if he would be saying DADDA or MOMMA? This questions will NEVER be answered; is he already crawling?

something I have came up with ; I got the first part off the internet; but the rest is from my own wordsss;

Will we know our baby when we meet again?
Will he have grown, not be the infant that died in our arms?
Will we recognize him, beable to find him among so many others?
or will he be a stranger to us, not knowing who we are,
or us knowing him?

Do babies grow in heaven?
He never got his first tooth, or said his first words.
No first shoes, no Santa, no first birthday cake;.
Will our son still be a baby when we meet again?

Do babies grow in heaven?
Who sings his precious lullabies?
Who hold him close and kisses him everyday?
Who tells him constantly that they love him?

Do babies grow in heaven?
When we next meet him, will he know us?
Will he want to know us?
Will he be our son who died 7 hours and 53 m inutes after birth, or a man , fully grown?
Will we have the joy of being a dad&mom to our son for all etermity?

Do babies grow in heaven?
Will we beable to hold him, love him, sing lullabies to him?
Will we beable to hold his tiny hand, or will it be a man's hand?
Will we ever have the joy that only holding our son can bring?
We need to know ! In heaven, is our baby still a baby?

Hi Again Everybody !!

Sorry everybody ! I haven't been on here much. It's beeen a while. I just wanted everybody to know were doing goood ; missing Anthony , but it will be like that for the rest of our lifes. Sometimes I sit here and think that he's just staying the night with my mom or Tonys mom . But its not like that. When I sit here, I know he's not coming back to be in my arms, and it gets me upset. I'll never get to hold him in my arms untill I pass away and go to heaven and meet with him again ! The other night Tony&I watched the video we had done for the viewing, where is shows all of Anthonys pictures, and we couldn't help but cry ! It's not fair that we wont get to have Anthony in our arms again ! ITS NOT RIGHT ! We want him back; I dont understand why it had to be US ? There is so MANY questions I have, and they WILL NEVER get answered . Life just isnt right with out Anthony ! He'll be a year old in FOUR MONTHS ! Time went by to fast. I wonder how much he weighs, who he looks like now ? This is the HARDEST thing we will EVER GO THROUGH !

Neeew pictuuures(:

All his hats, binkys, braclet(:

Thanks everybody again(:

Again. I wanna thank everybody who has beeeeeeen there for me.

Holly, for one- Girl, I don't even know you, and you've beeeen there 24/7. I don't know how to thank you girl! Everytime I post, your on it(: You've sent me things for our little Anthony. When I am down, you always write me something to cheer me up! You told me you AMAZING STORY of your beautiful little daughter.

Tony, Anthony's daddy- Baby, I don't know how to THANK YOU HUNNY! Your there by my side when I neeed you; you was there to hold my hand when we was at the viewing(: youuu are there for mee through, ANYTHING!! You don't let me feeel depressed, you always talk about Anthony and it ALWAYS cheers me up. ily.

Momma, Anthony's Nana; Well you was there for Tony&I when we found out that Anthony had anencephaly. You helped plan out his viewing&Funeral. You was by our siddde&my dadddys side THROUGH ANYTHING! ily.

Daddy, Anthony's Grandpa; You was there through ANYTHING! You wouldn't leave my side, nor Tonys sidddde; You held mine&Tonys hand the DAY ANTHONY WAS BRON! You toolld us everything was going to be okaaay! You said Anthony would stay with us, and show us he LOVES us! ily.

Momma#2, Anthony's Grandma- Were not ALL that closssssse; But you do anything for me, and your son(Tony). You couldnt make it when Anthony was born, but you made sure we was okay, and you called and asked about him, plenty of times. You always get me ANYTHING I want, even if you don't have much money to even do it(: ily.

Morgan, Anthony's Uncle; You was there for Tony&I when we neeeeded you. You was there for Tony&I&Anthony's nana when we found out Anthony had anencephaly. You brung Tony&I fooooood when we was in the hospital! You came up there when Anthony was born, you didn't make it while he was still alive, but it still meant ALOT toooo Tony, Anthony&I. ily.

This is to Anthony Aunt, and Uncles; Sorry ya'll, I didn't want to do it one by one, But I love you ALL and thanks for being there for me&Tony. Means the WORLD To both of us.
Crystal Morehead; I loveee you!
Charlie Sandiford; I loveee you!
Josephh Sandiford; I loveee you!
Brandon Dutton; I loveee you!