Anthony Is A Month Old

It's so hard to believe my little angel is already a month old. Time flys by so fast, and not only he is a month old but he is a month old on my birthday.. I miss my little bubba so much, its so hard. Anthonys daddy does anything and everything he can for me&&always talks about his little man.. :) Tony is a proud daddy to a perfect little baby. He is so glad that he is getting the chance to talk to other dads because during my pregantcy nobody was really there to talk to him but me. Anthony holds the key to my heart, and not only does he hold the key to my heart, he holds the key to his daddys heart. Anthony has made a big change in my life&in his fathers hearttt. I wouldn't trade in any moment I had with Anthony. I am glad he is not have any problems and he isn't suffering or anything. I am so proud of him. I know we will meet again so I know everything is okayyy. Again, if anybody need somebody to talk to I am here. I am not the perfect person, but believe me, I am here. I know what alot of you are going through, well some what, and his your husband or boyfriend needs somebody to talk to Tony is always here. Just email Lil_Tonys_Daddy@hotmail.com. And you all should have my emaill.

Anthony, Your An Angel.

Son, I love you with all my heart. I miss you more then anything in this world. Baby, I wouldn't trade you in for anything or anybody. You have my heart, and I know I won't get it back from my precious little angel. Son, having you made me feel like I was the best person in this world. You will always be mommys little man, && Daddys little monster. Daddy&I couldn't wait for you to be born, but wasn't ready to loss you. Somtimes I think you are still inside me, I rememeber the first time you kicked REALLY hard, daddy&I were att Morgans house, and daddy&I were so happy. Mommy&Daddy think of you all the time. I know you are watching over us now, and that is why we know you are okay, and with some wonderrfull people. The day you was born I was scared, I wasn't ready to have you. Daddy&I couldn't wait till you was born so we could see your beautiful face, but then again we wasn't ready for you to be born because we didn't wanna loss you. If it wasnt for you Daddy&I wouldn't even be together. You are the strongest baby Daddy&I have ever meet. Mommy&Daddy want you back so bad, we can't wait to come to heaven and see our little angel. You'll be a month old on mommys birthday, its so hard to believe you are that old, and it has been that long. I have my days where all I wanna do is think about my lil man. &&days where I know you are okay, and it's better that you are not in the terrible world.. I don't know how life would be if you wouldn't have been born into this world. I thank god for giving us 7 hours and 53 minutes with you, you held on for so long, and stayed strong for so long, you are a miracle baby. I was scared to death that you wasnt going to be with us long, but you proved to everybody you was strong. You wanted us to have ALOT of memories with you. You stayed strong so that everybody could come and meet you, and the ones who didn't, they missed out. Since you stayed SO STRONG for mommy&Daddy, we are now staying strong for you son. Mommy&Daddy love you so much bubba.

Picture Perfect!! :)

Anthony&Grandpa.


Cutiest Thing Ever!


Love This!


Mommy&Anthony.


Our Family.


Our Perfect Family.


So Happy!


Anthony.


He is my life, has my heart, my everything. I wouldn't trade him for anything or anybody in this world. I don't know what I would have done with my life if I wouldn't have had you. You changed my whole life. I love you like no other son. There is NO WAY to explain how I much and how I love you. Your mommys lil man. I love you bubba.

Picture Perfect!! :)

Anthony..


Nana&Anthony..


Mommy&Nana&Anthony..


Daddy&Anthony


Anthony.


Anthonys Feet&Mommy&Daddys Class Rings.


Daddy&Anthony.


Mommy&Anthony.

Missing Him So Much

May 29th, Anthony will be a month old, thats also my birthday. I miss my lil'man. :( There is something crazy, there is this lady that had a baby I think fridayy and her lil boy has something like Anthony did but it's something alittle different, and she had the baby in the same hospital I did, and they are NOT letting her have her baby with her, they took the baby and put him in ICU, but he also has heart problems. Really sad. But they are NOT feeding the baby, only sugar water. That pathetic. Also, she was in the SAME waiting room as I was, SAME recovery room, and now she is in the SAME room I was in. Isn't that crazyy. I just pray that your little boy will make it, and hope he stays strong like Anthony did. But Tony&I are going to be helping other families through this, person to person.. Were very happy to do this, && I know Anthony would want us to do that. :) We talk to Anthony all the time like he is here, and he is here in our hearts... Again if anybody needs to talk, or wants some imformation just email me at Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com.. God bless you all! :)

He's Perfect

We miss him more then anything. Think so much about him, he'll never get off our minds.. He was so perfect. It's been 2 weeks and 2 days since he has passed away. It's so hard to believe he is still so young. It feels like he is a month old, or even two months old. Tony&I have talked about things and we decided if we have another baby it will have Anthonys name in that babys name. If we have a boy it will his first name, and if we have a girl it will have Anthonys middle name. :) I think Anthony would really like that. I think it is better that Anthony is in heaven, he is in a better place. He will always be in our hearts, we'll never forget our little angel. We talk to him every night. It's kinda like he is here with us, but he isn't. We'll always love Anthony. Also we get to design Anthony headstone. We are doing that this weekend. Thanks for reading about our son, Anthony.! I'm here if anybody wants to talk.

Picture Perfect!! :)

Daddy&&Anthony!


Mommy&&Anthony!


Isn't It Cute!


Mommy&Daddy&Anthony!

We Miss Our Lil'Man

Sorry I haven't been to post about Anthony. He was with us for seven wonderful hours. He gave us a lifetime in 7 hours. We thought it would be REALLY hard, but we are staying STRONG for Anthony. He defently looks like his daddy, has his daddys top lip, his daddys nose, his eyes, Tony's face pretty much. He had my bottom lip and my checks. :) But he had both of our hair. :) So he features the both of us good. I know my lil man is looking down on his mommy, daddy, nana, and his grandpa, and his grandma, we know we are safe now that we have Anthony and god looking down on us all. He is deeply loved and missed, and will always be. We know he is in a better place, and a better place then us right now, he isn't suffering, and defently isnt going through any problems down here. I bet jesus is holding his in his arms right now telling him everything will be okay, soon his mommy and daddy will join him in heaven with him and god. If any mom reads this and is pregant with a baby with Anencephaly, I would love to help you through this. I would be willing to talk to anybody. I have a private email, just email me. Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com or Dadsangel2993@aol.com. I am here for anybody. Just know that everything will be okay, just take things slow, and have faith him your baby and not only your baby, but god.

Our Lil Man, Survived 7 Hours. He's A Fighter!

Oue Lil Man.


Daddy And His Lil Man.


His Little Ring.


Mommy&Daddy&Lil'Tony.


His Braclet.