Monday, April 13, 2009

2 Weeks And 4 Days To Go.

I know I haven't been on here posting everything like I should be. Just a really busy person, getting everything ready for when Anthony comes. He will be here in 2 weeks and 4 days. He is an amazing kicker. He loves to kick when his daddy talks to him. I can tell he is going to be with his daddy more. :) I am not ready for him to be here yet. It's a scary thing to be looking forward to. He is my first and don't know how it is going to feel, or what it is going to be like. He seems to always be a happy baby, even though he is still inside of me. Everybody is ready for him to be here, ready to hold our little angel. I'm scared I am not going to be the mommy that Anthony is looking forward to. I try to talk to him as much as I can, and rub my belly but I don't know if I am doing the right things for him. Sometimes I always ask myself why it has to be our son.? I don't see how this could happen to any baby? How could something like this happen to anybody? Sometimes I don't understand life. No matter where Baby Anthony is, I will always love him the same, never forget him. I want to spend the most time with him as I can. He holds the key to my heart. He showed me and his daddy what it really means to love somebody.


  1. It is such a hard thing to understand and I'm sure none of us will ever fully be able to know why this happens. You're going to be a great mommy to your little boy and there's no doubt you'll love him unconditionally, you've already proved that. I know you're prolly nervous about what to expect during the whole birthing process. Even though I had given birth before this situation was different and I was unsure what to expect. I know reading as many birth stories as I could from moms like us really helped.

  2. Oh hun...I so understand your confusion and pain over wondering why your precious boy has to have this condition. We will never understand this side of heaven. We just need to take comfort in knowing that we will see them again.

    You are a wonderful mother to Lil Tony, make no mistake. There is no right or wrong way to be a mother in this situation. That you are talking to him and rubbing your tummy shows him so much love. Trust me when I say that he knows and feels it!