Neeew pictuuures(:

All his hats, binkys, braclet(:

Thanks everybody again(:

Again. I wanna thank everybody who has beeeeeeen there for me.

Holly, for one- Girl, I don't even know you, and you've beeeen there 24/7. I don't know how to thank you girl! Everytime I post, your on it(: You've sent me things for our little Anthony. When I am down, you always write me something to cheer me up! You told me you AMAZING STORY of your beautiful little daughter.

Tony, Anthony's daddy- Baby, I don't know how to THANK YOU HUNNY! Your there by my side when I neeed you; you was there to hold my hand when we was at the viewing(: youuu are there for mee through, ANYTHING!! You don't let me feeel depressed, you always talk about Anthony and it ALWAYS cheers me up. ily.

Momma, Anthony's Nana; Well you was there for Tony&I when we found out that Anthony had anencephaly. You helped plan out his viewing&Funeral. You was by our siddde&my dadddys side THROUGH ANYTHING! ily.

Daddy, Anthony's Grandpa; You was there through ANYTHING! You wouldn't leave my side, nor Tonys sidddde; You held mine&Tonys hand the DAY ANTHONY WAS BRON! You toolld us everything was going to be okaaay! You said Anthony would stay with us, and show us he LOVES us! ily.

Momma#2, Anthony's Grandma- Were not ALL that closssssse; But you do anything for me, and your son(Tony). You couldnt make it when Anthony was born, but you made sure we was okay, and you called and asked about him, plenty of times. You always get me ANYTHING I want, even if you don't have much money to even do it(: ily.

Morgan, Anthony's Uncle; You was there for Tony&I when we neeeeded you. You was there for Tony&I&Anthony's nana when we found out Anthony had anencephaly. You brung Tony&I fooooood when we was in the hospital! You came up there when Anthony was born, you didn't make it while he was still alive, but it still meant ALOT toooo Tony, Anthony&I. ily.

This is to Anthony Aunt, and Uncles; Sorry ya'll, I didn't want to do it one by one, But I love you ALL and thanks for being there for me&Tony. Means the WORLD To both of us.
Crystal Morehead; I loveee you!
Charlie Sandiford; I loveee you!
Josephh Sandiford; I loveee you!
Brandon Dutton; I loveee you!

Grandpa&Anthony;

Anthony, Daddy&Mommy LOVE&MISS YOU!

Anthony's 5 Months 1 Week&2 Days Old.

Well I juss wanted to thank everybody who has took the time to come and read Mine, Tony's&Anthony's blog. I might not know any of ya'll but ya'll have beeen suporrtive to not only me, but Tony.

We miss Anthony more then anything in this world. I would do anything to bring him back. ): when he was born and a couple hours after, and he was having hard times breatheing and wasn't going to make it much longer, Tony&I and my momma&Daddy were all sitting around him and I would tell him "it's okay son, you can go, we won't be mad at you" everytime I said that, he'd breathe, and it would make Tony&I smile. To this day, I think that is what he was wanting us to do, is smile before he went to join Jesus.

Debbie- I would like to thank you for coming and reading my blog. I don't know you, but from what Tony has told me, you seem really nice(: thanks again for coming and reading it. If there is ANYTHING you wanna ask, please don't be scareeeed; && that goes along for everybody else.

Our Angel Is 5 months and 4 days ollld;

Well sorry I haven't been posting latley; I just been having alot going on lately; && alot of things have beeen getting to me, and have beeen starting to feeel down about everything; I've beeen misssing Anthony so much; Somebody said Anthony didn't have NO brain and that REALLY got too me and had me upset, REALLY upset; && then they said I did drugs while I was pregnant and caused him to have Anencephaly. & to me, there is NO reason for that; For along time I blamed myself and when I seeen that, it really got to me and made me really upset, and if I didn't have Tony, I don't think I could have went through that; The people that run there mouth about it don't know how it feels. & people that haven't had a baby with anencephaly don't know how it feeels to watch your baby suffer too beathe and then have too give your newborn and viewing and funeral. NO its not the easiest thing to do. Other moms know but not people who haven't experienced it. If Tony wasn't around to help me through all of this, honestly I don't think I would have been able to do this alonne. I thank Tony everyday for being a REAL MAN and sticking by my side at such a young age, and with any other guy, they would leave their girlfriendd. Well I thought I would post ya'll. Again if you need to talk to me, email me at Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com or if anybody neeeds to talk to Tony, email him at Lil_Tonys_Daddy@hotmail.com

Soooo cute;

Our angel is 4 months and 8 days old.

if anybody wants me too edit a picture like this, juss write me and send me the pictuuure; I am not like Amber though, she iis gettin me the thing too do it, but untill then, I can do some things.

Anthony is getting sooo old. I wish i could see how big he is gettin. (:

I sat down and wrote my story is a couple different ways, this is one, and another one is on Anencephaie-info.org. But let me know what ya'll think about this one? (:

Well as you all know that Tony&I are proud parents to an anencephaly baby. I was 15 years old and Tony was 16 when I found out I was pregnant, I thought it was a crazy thing and never thought I would get pregnant. As my pregnancy went on, I was having some complications; I was in and out the hospital. One day, when I was 5 months pregnant with Anthony, my pains were so bad, I decided I would go to the hospital again. As I was laying in the hospital bed, they came and let me listen to Anthony’s heartbeat, the first time I got to hear it, they said they wanted to do a sonogram, but wouldn't let anybody in there with me. That sounded kind of weird but I wanted to see my baby, so it was okay. They were taking measurements and a lady said she had to go check them one more time, and I didn't think anything about it. I went back to the room, and was sitting there and started to get worried, the nurse came in and told me she had very bad news for me and she was sorry to have to tell me this, but my Anthony had be diagnosed with anencephaly. I had NO IDEA what on earth those words meant, so I continued to listen and all I could get out of her words was that our Anthony was going to pass away during birth, after birth or while in my belly. I was scared to death. Tony, the baby’s father, and I looked at each other and didn't know what to say to each other. All we could do is cry. Tony had wanted a baby for so long and when we found out that I was pregnant with our little Miracle he was so happy, it was unexplainable. When he heard those words come from those nurses he couldn't even get any words out.They told me I need too get OB/GYN and fiqure out how our pregnancy would go.; They were trying to get me to go ahead and end our pregnancy; Tony&I told each other that we couldn't do that to our little miracle of life; They continued to tell me that our Anthony wouldn't make it through the pregnancy;As I went on with the pregnancy we did some research and found out more about anencephaly. We found out that the brain isn't FULLY developed, and there was noo skin there coverin it up, and we were soo scared to see our angel like that..On May 1, 2009, our lifes changed. We wasn't scareeed to see our Anthony like that. He was PERFECT! The first time I seen him, I couldn't do anything but thank god for such a miracle. Watchin Anthony take his last breathe in life was the hardest thing of our lifes. We keep telling Anthony it was okay to go because we knew he would be in a better was and wouldn't be suffering, and would feel NO pain.At Anthony's services and funeral, it was really hard knowing our little angel was gone to heaven, and wouldn't be coming home with us. At night we lay and bed, and finally fall asleep, and wake up in the middle of the night thinking we hear Anthony cry and think it is time to feed him. And thats the hardest thing of our liife. We look forward to giviin Anthony a brother or sister' We will beable to tell Anthonys brother or sister soooo much about Anthony, and cann juss go on and on! Anthony is the best thing that has ever happened to us, and we wouldn't go back and change ANY of it.

Gavesiiite

Babyy


Land.


Rest in peace, our angel.


His flowerrs;


Anthony Loren Guinn Jr.


His headstone will be up shortly, and I will put picturees on(:
Thanks again everybodddy;

September 6, 2009!

Well I am sorry I haven't posted much latelyy. I thought I would let ya'll see some picturres I have of Anthony, and his gravesitee. I hoppe you like(:

I juss have been REALLY busy lately, and don't have much time to get on the computer;

As Of August 20, 2009

We have been missing Anthony alot here lately. I have been arguing with this kid about Anthony. He said some disturbing things, and I am NOT going to let it upset me, because I know everything he said was nothing but a lieee. Alot of things have been going on in all of our lives, and it makes me want Anthony back in my arms, so everything would juss go AWAY! We are wanting another baby here soon. I have though alot about school, and I can drop out and get my GED but I have been thinking about doing what I did for my 9th gradee year. Which is the home cound program! I have this weekend to decide, but I wanna beable to get my high school deploma, and I am going to be taking some college classes online to become a photographer. Which is SOMETHING I love doing, and I wanna beable to take pictures of babies that may not make it long after birth, like people did with me! && I wanna do it for free. I'm dunno get through school and this college, and Tony will be getting a job here soon, and I am going to get him to get me a GOOD camera, the prefesional cameras. Thought I would update you all, and sorry I haven't been on here much to tell ya'll everything.

(:

Hey everybody; I just wanted to update everybody on how my life is going, along with Anthonys&Tony's!! Anthony is missed deaply. ): Wish I could bring him backkk. So does Tony. ); things are getting harder and harder everyday. Wishing we could wake up in the middle of the night to Anthony crying because he is hungry. I really don't know what else to sayyyy. I juss wanted to let you all know how we are doing, and feeling. I am about to go to bed, so it is a short postttt. Message me on yahoo if you wanna talk, or myspace.. If you look me up on myspace it's under Karie Guinn!!!

Two Months&Fourteen Days Old'

Hey everyone, I want to post and let you all know everything that is going on. I am going through a really rough time. My mother moved outta our house, leaving me with everything. I have to worry about my brother, as if he is my son. My dad is having to work 24/7. Tony is tryin to get a job. We want another baby here soon. We both wanna get up on our feet first. The kids I was watching, I am NO longer watching anymore. I feel really bad because I am not on here posting all the time. Anthony has changed our lifes so much. He touched mine and his daddy's heart so much.. I never thought somebody so small could touch so many peoples heart's. I got some flowers out there at Anthony's gravesite. I am not able to get out there much, but I am tryin. Tony&I&My father are trying to get his headstone up FAST(: We have to get a paper from the cemetery and take it to my dad's job and they will be paying for it(: they are REALLY nice people. I am having problems with my C-Section, it has been REALLY sore lately. Honestly it is really worth all the pain, body wise. It was ALL for our little Anthony. He means the world to me.. I am glad he is doing PERFECT in heaven with all the other ANGELS(: I know other mommy's know how I feel and where I am coming from.


Again thank you for reading Tony&Anthony&My blog!
Anthony's Mommy&Daddy! Seven Hours And Fivty Three Minutes.
Daddy's Lil'Man(:

Sorry Everyone;

SORRY I HAVEN'T BEEN ON POSTING EVERYBODY UP; BEEN ALOT TO BE DOING; WE ARE GETTING OUR SON'S HEADSTONE UP SOON; ORDERED IT NOT TO LONG AGO. THEY WERE SUPOSSED TO. I HOPE THEY DID; I HAVE BEEN UNDER ALOT OF STREE LATELY. I AM WATCHING KIDS NOW FOR $150.00 A WEEK; TONY IS ABOUT TO HAVE A JOB. GETTING ON OUR FEET; ANTHONY IS NOW 2 MONTHS AND 4 DAYS OLD; HE IS GETTING SO OLD SO FAST; I BET HE IS GETTING BIG UP THERE WITH JESUS. IF ONLY I COULD SEE HOW MUCH BIGGER HE HAS GOTTEN. (: HE'S SO PERFECT; I CAN'T WAIT TO MEET WITH HIM AGAIN. BEFORE ANTHONY WAS BORN, I WAS SCARED TO DIE, AND NOW I AM NOT SCARED TO JOIN ANTHONY&JESUS IN HEAVEN. (: I WOULDN'T MIND IT AT ALL. SORRY I AM NOT ON HERE MUCH. OUR LABTOP BROKE AND THIS COMPUTER RUNS SLOW, BUT I GET ON MY EMAIL SOMETIMES IF YOU JUSS WANNA WRITE ME. BUT ALSO YOU CAN WRITE TONY. HE IS A BIG HELP; THANK YOU ALL FOR COMING TO MY PAGE AND CHECKING THE UPDATES; (:

THANK YOU;
KARIE&TONY;
ANTHONYS MOMMY&DADDY;; 7 HOURS&53 MINUTES;
5 POUNDS 6.2OZ
171/2 IN LONG;
BORN INTO MOMMY&DADDY'S ARMS AT 8:21AM
JOINED JESUS AT 4:14PM

aNtHoNy, MoMmY&DaDdY LoVe YoU&MiSs YoU.

Anthony is deaply missed by alot.. He is getting so old so fast, I bet you he is getting so big, I wish I could watch him grow.. I love him so much.. We got his flowers set up in our new room, his crib is still up, and is NEVER coming down.. (: Anthony's headstone will be up soon, trying to get one we like, and think of something good for it to sayyyy. (: This is going to be short because I am feeling sick, I just wanted to update everybodyyy, wish I could update you all on him.. Atleast I know my little angel is watching everything I am doing, an making sure I do nothing he doesn't want me to; (: Anybody that wants to talk, please feel free to email me Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com and feel free to email Tony with imformation from the fathers poing of viewww. He is a suporitive person.. Lil_Tonys_Daddy@hotmail.com

aNtHoNy Is MiSsEd DeApLy!

ANTHONY IS MISSED SO MUCH. HE IS NOW A MONTH AND FOUR DAYS OLD. BEFORE WE KNOW IT HE WILL BE TURNING A YEAR OLD. :( THINGS REALLY HAVEN'T BEEN TO WELL RIGHT NOW, WE THINK I AM PREGNANT AGAIN. NOT POSITIVE ABOUT IT. I ASKED ANTHONY IS HE WOULD BE MAD AT ME FOR HAVING ANOTHER BABY, AND NOT TO REPLACE HIM, TO REMIND ME OF HIM, AND HIS RESPONCE WAS NO! ANTHONYS DADDY TALKS ABOUT HIM ALL THE TIME, AND NOT ONLY HIM HIS UNCLE BRANDON.. &&HE IS ONLY FOUR YEARS OLD. HE KNOWS WHERE ANTHONY IS, AND KNOWS WHERE HEAVEN IS. TONY REALLY LOVES ANTHONY, ITS LIKE THERE IS NOTHING TO TAKE HIS MIND OFF OF ANTHONY, ABSOLUTELY NOTHING! ANTHONY HAS EFFECTED OUR LIFES ALOT, AND SOME OTHER PEOPLES TO! WE WILL NEVER FORGET OUR LITTLE ANGEL, AND HE WILL NEVER GET REPLACED, I HAVE A LOVE FOR THAT BOY LIKE NO OTHER, NO WORDS CAN EXPLAIN MY LOVE FOR ANTHONY. HE CAME INO THIS WORLD SO AMAZINGLY, HE DIDN'T EVEN CRY THE WHOLE TIME HE WAS WITH US, THE ONLY TIME HE DID WAS WHEN HE WAS BORN.. MOMMY LOVES YOU ANTHONY LOREN GUINN JR.

Anthony Is A Month Old

It's so hard to believe my little angel is already a month old. Time flys by so fast, and not only he is a month old but he is a month old on my birthday.. I miss my little bubba so much, its so hard. Anthonys daddy does anything and everything he can for me&&always talks about his little man.. :) Tony is a proud daddy to a perfect little baby. He is so glad that he is getting the chance to talk to other dads because during my pregantcy nobody was really there to talk to him but me. Anthony holds the key to my heart, and not only does he hold the key to my heart, he holds the key to his daddys heart. Anthony has made a big change in my life&in his fathers hearttt. I wouldn't trade in any moment I had with Anthony. I am glad he is not have any problems and he isn't suffering or anything. I am so proud of him. I know we will meet again so I know everything is okayyy. Again, if anybody need somebody to talk to I am here. I am not the perfect person, but believe me, I am here. I know what alot of you are going through, well some what, and his your husband or boyfriend needs somebody to talk to Tony is always here. Just email Lil_Tonys_Daddy@hotmail.com. And you all should have my emaill.

Anthony, Your An Angel.

Son, I love you with all my heart. I miss you more then anything in this world. Baby, I wouldn't trade you in for anything or anybody. You have my heart, and I know I won't get it back from my precious little angel. Son, having you made me feel like I was the best person in this world. You will always be mommys little man, && Daddys little monster. Daddy&I couldn't wait for you to be born, but wasn't ready to loss you. Somtimes I think you are still inside me, I rememeber the first time you kicked REALLY hard, daddy&I were att Morgans house, and daddy&I were so happy. Mommy&Daddy think of you all the time. I know you are watching over us now, and that is why we know you are okay, and with some wonderrfull people. The day you was born I was scared, I wasn't ready to have you. Daddy&I couldn't wait till you was born so we could see your beautiful face, but then again we wasn't ready for you to be born because we didn't wanna loss you. If it wasnt for you Daddy&I wouldn't even be together. You are the strongest baby Daddy&I have ever meet. Mommy&Daddy want you back so bad, we can't wait to come to heaven and see our little angel. You'll be a month old on mommys birthday, its so hard to believe you are that old, and it has been that long. I have my days where all I wanna do is think about my lil man. &&days where I know you are okay, and it's better that you are not in the terrible world.. I don't know how life would be if you wouldn't have been born into this world. I thank god for giving us 7 hours and 53 minutes with you, you held on for so long, and stayed strong for so long, you are a miracle baby. I was scared to death that you wasnt going to be with us long, but you proved to everybody you was strong. You wanted us to have ALOT of memories with you. You stayed strong so that everybody could come and meet you, and the ones who didn't, they missed out. Since you stayed SO STRONG for mommy&Daddy, we are now staying strong for you son. Mommy&Daddy love you so much bubba.

Picture Perfect!! :)

Anthony&Grandpa.


Cutiest Thing Ever!


Love This!


Mommy&Anthony.


Our Family.


Our Perfect Family.


So Happy!


Anthony.


He is my life, has my heart, my everything. I wouldn't trade him for anything or anybody in this world. I don't know what I would have done with my life if I wouldn't have had you. You changed my whole life. I love you like no other son. There is NO WAY to explain how I much and how I love you. Your mommys lil man. I love you bubba.

Picture Perfect!! :)

Anthony..


Nana&Anthony..


Mommy&Nana&Anthony..


Daddy&Anthony


Anthony.


Anthonys Feet&Mommy&Daddys Class Rings.


Daddy&Anthony.


Mommy&Anthony.

Missing Him So Much

May 29th, Anthony will be a month old, thats also my birthday. I miss my lil'man. :( There is something crazy, there is this lady that had a baby I think fridayy and her lil boy has something like Anthony did but it's something alittle different, and she had the baby in the same hospital I did, and they are NOT letting her have her baby with her, they took the baby and put him in ICU, but he also has heart problems. Really sad. But they are NOT feeding the baby, only sugar water. That pathetic. Also, she was in the SAME waiting room as I was, SAME recovery room, and now she is in the SAME room I was in. Isn't that crazyy. I just pray that your little boy will make it, and hope he stays strong like Anthony did. But Tony&I are going to be helping other families through this, person to person.. Were very happy to do this, && I know Anthony would want us to do that. :) We talk to Anthony all the time like he is here, and he is here in our hearts... Again if anybody needs to talk, or wants some imformation just email me at Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com.. God bless you all! :)

He's Perfect

We miss him more then anything. Think so much about him, he'll never get off our minds.. He was so perfect. It's been 2 weeks and 2 days since he has passed away. It's so hard to believe he is still so young. It feels like he is a month old, or even two months old. Tony&I have talked about things and we decided if we have another baby it will have Anthonys name in that babys name. If we have a boy it will his first name, and if we have a girl it will have Anthonys middle name. :) I think Anthony would really like that. I think it is better that Anthony is in heaven, he is in a better place. He will always be in our hearts, we'll never forget our little angel. We talk to him every night. It's kinda like he is here with us, but he isn't. We'll always love Anthony. Also we get to design Anthony headstone. We are doing that this weekend. Thanks for reading about our son, Anthony.! I'm here if anybody wants to talk.

Picture Perfect!! :)

Daddy&&Anthony!


Mommy&&Anthony!


Isn't It Cute!


Mommy&Daddy&Anthony!

We Miss Our Lil'Man

Sorry I haven't been to post about Anthony. He was with us for seven wonderful hours. He gave us a lifetime in 7 hours. We thought it would be REALLY hard, but we are staying STRONG for Anthony. He defently looks like his daddy, has his daddys top lip, his daddys nose, his eyes, Tony's face pretty much. He had my bottom lip and my checks. :) But he had both of our hair. :) So he features the both of us good. I know my lil man is looking down on his mommy, daddy, nana, and his grandpa, and his grandma, we know we are safe now that we have Anthony and god looking down on us all. He is deeply loved and missed, and will always be. We know he is in a better place, and a better place then us right now, he isn't suffering, and defently isnt going through any problems down here. I bet jesus is holding his in his arms right now telling him everything will be okay, soon his mommy and daddy will join him in heaven with him and god. If any mom reads this and is pregant with a baby with Anencephaly, I would love to help you through this. I would be willing to talk to anybody. I have a private email, just email me. Anthonys_Mommy_05@yahoo.com or Dadsangel2993@aol.com. I am here for anybody. Just know that everything will be okay, just take things slow, and have faith him your baby and not only your baby, but god.

Our Lil Man, Survived 7 Hours. He's A Fighter!

Oue Lil Man.


Daddy And His Lil Man.


His Little Ring.


Mommy&Daddy&Lil'Tony.


His Braclet.